Alot of people probably will not be too impressed, but I've been sober for 18 years now. I'm sure Asher remembers some of my last days drinking, they were not pretty, it's embarrassing to think about it. To be sober for this long is a miracle. Many people have helped along the way--Thankyou all!
It is a big deal to me though and in my own way (no alcohol or drugs) I celebrate.
Our creative designer is changing things on our website!
I like the changes, which is progress for me, I've had some problems accepting change in the past. I could stay stuck in a rut for years, even when it wasn't healthy. But when you get comfortable with where you are, it's hard to move forward. Another problem has been denial.
"Oh it isn't that bad," I would rationalize. But when you are dieing and bringing others down with you, it might be a signal to change.
Of course this website isn't in the negative catagory to begin with, but we want to continually be open to improvements--not get stagnant. That is one important lesson that I've learned the past 17 years, be open to change. It is coming whether I approve or not, so the more I fight it, the more unhealthy I become. Physically, emotionally and spiritually unhealthy.
DIS-eased...had enough of that, I'll take health please...and welcome change!
Happy Thanksgiving to all!
What are you thankful for? I'm grateful to be alive and to be able to type this out and read what others have to say!
Yesterday I spent some time with my 20 month old grand daughter. When we were leaving she gleefully wished me goodbye, "Bye, bye Macky Mac," was how she put it. So I figure I'll use that pen name from now on.
Ok, there we go!
Man...the only reason I'm doing this today is to be disciplined and establish a habit. Not sure what to write....
Just trying to be OK wherever I'm at. Anyone else know what I'm talking about? Is anyone else reading this!? It doesn't matter. The fact that I'm expressing my feelings is what matters. If someone else reads this and can identify--great! I've been seeing a therapist and he thinks I need to get in touch with anger that I have been avoiding since childhood. That's alot of what I have been feeling lately, but have avoided it so long I don't even know what it feels like...I'm human (not Superman like all of you think of me) my emotions need to be expressed or I get sick and depressed...wow where did this come from? All apologies!
Hey sorry it has been so long since I've blogged. I tried to write some last week but had technical difficulties...anyway I'm here now and glad!
Last week I was thinking more of the unfortunate folks dealing with this meninigitis. I wish I could help them, all that I can do is say, "Hey! I've been there, here is what I do to cope and to stay alive."
So if any of know of someone affected by meningitis send them my way, I'd like to talk to them.
Another thing I've been mulling over is travelling to Sedona. Travelling anywhere for me would be a major miracle, but before I got sick, I wanted to scout out that area around Sedona more.